Struggling

It hasn’t gotten less shitty. People are finding out. They are surprised. I was so confident and so driven to get the job done and now i’m reduced so something very weak. I still haven’t fully given up on it. I still think the idea is there. I don’t know if there is gas left in the tank. Which is bullshit. I know there’s gas left. It’s just, is this what I want to deploy it on? I have had a hard time making decisions too. It’s hard. I feel like I just got divorced and she took the kids.